This is a message for you..and me

This is a message for those who have given up a loved one for the sake of Allah (swt).
This is a message for us all.

When you give up something you love dearly for the sake of Allah (swt),
the Most Gracious, Most Merciful will indeed replace that which you have lost with something even better. something you can't even imagine. something so beautiful it makes you cry at the thought of how Generous our Lord is. Those who are patient will be rewarded, inshaAllah.

You need to trust Him. You need to put your faith in the One who created you, the One who put us through hardships knowing that we have the strength to bear it. If we weren't able to, He wouldn't let us suffer like that. Maybe you're going through a tough time right now but you need to be patient and have faith that He will provide for you. He will give you better. He will make you happy again. He will do that because He is so Merciful.

I want you to know what life is like after the hardship you go through. I want you to know what it feels like after being patient for so long. I want you to have HOPE. SubhanAllah I can't even describe how happy I am. Allah (swt) has replaced that which I have lost with someone amazingly beautiful. I never thought that I'd find him, but I did. I have him. And I never want to let him go. Letting go of that something in your life for the sake of Allah (swt) might be the hardest decision you'll ever have to make, but it will turn out to be the best decision ever, inshaAllah. We need to fear Allah (swt). We should be scared of His punishment but at the same time we should also know that He is so Merciful. He loves those who sin and repent to him. We are humans, we sin everyday...but we need to make sure that we repent and ask for His forgiveness before it's too late.

And when you do decide to let go, don't forget to breathe. Life will still continue. Life will still go on. You will be fine. You have yourself, you have your friends, you have your family, and most importantly, you have Allah (swt) who will provide for you, who will mend your broken heart. Trust me. And most importantly, trust The All-Mighty. He loves those who puts their trust in Him.

to help others , you would have to help your self first.
I am worried about them.

sorry, not you.

just not you.

knowing how things work in reality, gives me more understanding on how this life should go through its path.

the guided path.

I know, you can't wait. the universe should obey you not the other way round. I know what you have in mind.
The only thing that I don't know is to make you realize, that everything you are wishing for are just lies, that would definitely defeat you and eventually make you hate your self!

pathetic me.

poor you .

I am not being judgmental.
I am not an angle. not even a good servant.

I am....

'something'.

'that' contributes nothing.

when you mentioned my name, I was laughing.
so, I fooled you, didn't I?

this is what I call..

"my show".

and seems like you are enjoying it. Don't you?

I feel sick. to wait and see .
I feel sick to pretend normal.
I feel sick to live this way, your initial way.
Trust me, you would never want to know your ending I've predicted.

Please Allah save them!
I love them and they are not anyone of you.

Dear,

why I am still a Muslim despite all these struggles, I believe Allah has greater plans. If we compare our struggles with the people before us, maybe their struggles is even worst. I also believed that Allah makes it hard for me because He knows it is 'hard' for me to leave Islam.

I may not be one to advise you about this, since  I am still 20 and single, what more that I am a complete stranger. But know this, I know that it is very hard for you and I am telling this out of my love for Allah and for His creation, you, and I also believe this is my effort to help you because I know how that felt.

Also, ask yourself this, do you sincerely believe that if you convert back things will change?

Things around us will just get more difficult and sometimes hard to bear but if we try to change the unchangeable, it will be much harder for us. So change something that you can change, that is, yourself. By yourself, I mean, your way of thinking. Try to change our mindset by thinking, "This will pass." everytime you are afflicted with tests.

It’s easy to look at people and make quick judgments about them, their present and their past, but you’d be amazed at the pain and tears a single smile hides. What a person shows to the world is only one tiny facet of the iceberg hidden from sight. And more often then not, it’s lined with cracks and scars that go all the way to the foundation of their soul

I'm telling you this as your buddy , as a believer, as a Muslim, as someone who has finally realised the true beauty of being patient. And as someone who has found her other half.