curhat letter to Allah

i think i need taqwa. i need it so bad and i can barely breath without it.
if its even possible to grab it with my bare hands. i don't wanna let go.
it made me feel alive.it comforts me.it never stops pushing me forward.
it tells me bedtime story before i went to sleep.it kisses me goodnight. it helps me to sleep well every night
it pushes away any burden that comes around. or helps me cross the line of struggleness
it helps me to thank God when things goes well. or to feel redha when bad things passes by.
it leads my way. it gives me spirit. it gives me inspiration. it gives me mind-blowing ideas.
it wakes me up when i fell asleep.or loosen me up when i'm over the borders.
but if you can give me some help, just don't stop.ever.i need you the most.today or tomorrow.

Thank You Allah.

Best,
Sarah